I cant' believe it! Johan is of a different character and he has always operated under “Better safe than sorry” (where he is trained you can end up dying if you don't). So he hoped for the best but prepared for the worst. He had everything lined up 'just in case' – Engineers for documenting, trucks for moving, lawyers on call for advice, documents for laying off staff. When returning to the facility in Stockholm in january what we hoped for was that they had fixed at least temperature, ventilation and the circumstances around handling chemicals so it could live up to regulations and standards. What they basically had done was sweep the floors! Water temperature in the showers was 9 degrees Centigrade and the pool water was also way below par. Enough! We do not work under the same standards or have the same understanding of quality or respect. Swimmix Stockholm will close. Johan made the calls to people who was on hold. Movers roll in with a big truck and together with our staff they pack up all our inventories. Within hours we are out and the truck drives south and - sadly – the splendid Stockholm team is laid off.
I suffer and feel like a big disappointment to all who have believed in us. The voice of criticism runs on repeat in my head. “You should have... If only you... Why didn't you...???” What keeps me from not beating my self up totally is honest, kind “big” people I have arround me. This is people whom I respect and who have the grace of never judging or condemning me nor my actions. They are the ones whom I always feel safe arround, they know me and they become even more important when I experience harsh times. Thank you! Actually thank you to all of you who are big at heart and mind – you are true mental life saviors.
After having two facility managers in a short period of time and turmoil within staff in Limhamn (Sweden) I choose to step in as facility manager. There was still a team of very dedicated teachers left and they needed attention and some new colleagues that could match their personality and abilities.
I also choose to teach more than I have had time to do for a couple of years. Looking back I understand how important that was for me.
In 2009 we change our teaching slightly again. We start focusing on the same adventure for 3-5 weeks. We devide the year within periods where we work with different themes. We have always tought with fantasy and with a good story to build arround the lessons but now we make colorful drawings of the lessons and we all work within the same theme and that has a tremendous positive impact because again, when we do it together it becomes better and the outcome becomes more. The year starts out with a tour arround the world. Among other themes we have magic, halloween, jungle and space theme. Kids love it! Parents love it too and so do we – it's fun to play! And what we learn is that our children are learning about other things too while swimming. So swimming is not just swimming it's also learning about the world and planets! School is in the pool! And I think - we can do more.
I have been speaking at several occasions both nationally and internationally and in october 2010 the WABC conference is in Vancouver. This time Noa and I did a joint performance presenting 'Dynamic Baby Swimming' where I focus and present on the parents and parental views and Noa focuses on the children and building self esteem. It was enriching to work together and we also had great fun presenting. I really wish we can do more of that in the future – we are good together!
Thank you Sharron Crawley and your team for a great event. Thank you to all attendees. I will always remember Vancouver as one of the best places on Earth thanks to that event. It was a couple of amazing days.
I'll share one more thing... from our presentation. When I had done my part of the presentation I realized that I had lost track of time. When Noa went on I felt panic inside – I had talked for more than an hour and only left 10 minutes for Noa!!! Organizers had informed us that going beyond time was not acceptable and that they would stop us when time was up.
I rushed down to Sharron Crawley (organizer) who sat comfortably listening to Noa. I didn't think I could make my concern clear. Probably I was just blabbering and making no sence, just annoying Sharron. She said: “No problem.” And I thought “Oh Yes! Big Problem! How am I going to make this up to Noa??”
Well it was me who was totally wrong on time! I had kept my time frame perfectly – I got confused and freaked out (inside... I was cool on the outside) maybe due to jetlag? Of course - absolutely jetlag!
Besides confusing myself I managed to confuse Noa by disappearing while she was on stage. But she handled it very professionally.
It was at this point I started to forget things and get confused at times. I had never experienced anything like it before. I laughed and called my self Doris (you know - Nemo's confused friend) but I was also concerned. My mind was playing me tricks and I felt uneasy. I wondered if it was Alzheimers. I knew something was not right.
Thank you to all organizers who have showed me the trust and giving me the opportunity to speak at your events. Sharing is daring when it is something that is important to you so a very dear and warm thank you to all who have showed interest and patience when listening.
The owner of the building in Stockholm said he'd sue us. And he was welcome to do so. Our lawyers said that it would be best if he did but if he didn't we would. The experience in Stockholm had cost us plenty in both investments and personal resources although the latter doesn't count in these cases. So pretty much all of 2009 Johan is, apart from Keep Track, occupied with legal processes and meetings with lawyers and gathering all documents and witnesses. Here is where we really appreciate that we have everything documented, filed and stored in one place and with back-up.
Court date is set to be in November. Our opponent manages to postpone it so we will start 2010 by going to court.